It’s almost time to start my marathon
Of movies as I lay in bed surrounded by darkness
Hiding from the world as it turns
Bothers me ? it does not.
Allowing my mind to go numb while I watch
Things that I use to.
As my eyes drift close
My mind becomes at peace when I sleep.
Waking up after a few hours.
I might get up, to join the rest of the world
Or do I change the movie up.
Will be a spontaneous decision.
More than likely changing up to another movie
Waiting to see what’s next that I find
To stare at blankly
Allowing for me to not pay attention to.
Almost like my mind isn’t even here anymore
My eyes look like static as nothing can be seen
Been told in the past that my eyes were sad
I believe they are now balls of static looking at the world.
Not sure if they show emotion.
Not sure what they show
People tell me life is convoluted
Perhaps I’m too simplistic for life
Never been one to understand much.
Can explain it to me several times
But my mind has yet to get it.
Brain drifts in and out of different thoughts
I don’t think I even understand what comes out of my mouth
Trouble pronouncing words that should be easy.
It takes me three to four times
Then I might just give up cause I feel lazy
You can easily see me struggle at times
But yet at times I try to continue things
Other times I’m just better off just to forget
I struggle with the simplest
Complex I don’t even try