Last Few Days

So over the course of the last few days I’ve been in a constant battle with my ex, apparently she feels she’s getting screwed over by her current cell phone carrier and after looking into it and trying to be my typical nice guy I told her I agree with her conclusion so she asked me to look for a new provider so we took off to Upper Canada Mall for her to ask questions but of course she was in one her moods and refused so that night I got frustrated out of my fucking mind and I send her this:

If you want to go to Walmart today and try to get the phone ordeal figured out, do it. 
I had a thought about going with you to Newmarket when you were going to try and get the phone working with them but I can see that it must be a instant thing with you otherwise life is going to end or some shit like that so if you must have it done asap then go to Walmart. 
I don’t see what the big deal is but I guess it’s one of your “friends” and some secret. So go get the stupid phone. 

As for new years dinner, your on your own just like new years eve. I’m just going to do my own thing. If you want to go out to a concert or visit your friend go for it, have a few drinks and spend the night. 

I have no interests in paying attention to the whole thing I don’t even know if I will be awake for it.

In the morning I woke up to her response which I can’t help but laugh at various things in regards to it like she feels that she’s the cause of why I borrowed an anxiety blanket etc, so this is what she said

I would like to get things taken care of asap, yes…. But I will wait because you’re right, and it’s one of the things I was going to say, I know Walmart won’t be able to help me anyway….that’s why the email specifically says “Koodo Store”.   We will go on January 2nd if you’re up for it after my physio appointment.
I am sorry that I want to get everything straightened out as soon as possible…. I have the tendency to forget things easily, as you know…..that’s one of the reasons I am getting my license/health card done today instead of waiting.  I have physio, banking appointments, and heading back to work coming up and I don’t want to accidentally forget to do something.
As for New Years, my plan has always been the same as what has become tradition; chill out on the couch, watching movies and snacking with you, having a drink, and us go to bed whenever we’re tired.
I had the idea, when I saw the ad on tv while at my parents, for the possibility of us going out to Barrie but that quickly got turned down so I went back to the original plan.
Truthfully, not once did I think about going to Burks Falls to hang out with Nikki or to Toronto and hang out with Bryce….not once did it cross my mind….though I have the feeling you think I’m lying about that, like everything I say.
With what you said, I get the feeling you don’t even want to hang out and watch movies today….or snack, or be in the presence of my ugliness (inside and out, just so I’m being specific).  If you would rather not, that’s fine…. I’m still planning on making up chips and dip, the wong wing stuff and oriental party pack.  If you choose to have some of it with me, then fine, if not, there’s nothing I can do.  I can offer, I can try to be nice, but in the end, I’m always wrong so why should the last day of the year be any different.
I will bypass the ham then and we’ll just come up with something else to have…. maybe we’ll try that tater tot recipe if you want.
I am sorry I make you life so difficult…. I’m sorry that I make you angry and upset, and stressed out, and anxious all the time that you feel you need to hide away form the world and get an “anxiety blanket”.  I didn’t think I was making things that bad for you, but I guess just the presence of me being here is enough to cause that.   I’m sorry I couldn’t move out in the spring for you to make your life so much better this year.   I will aim for that for 2019 so that maybe your life won’t be so horrible for the second half of the year….and your mothers too.    I know this living here while not together is not the ideal situation but I have still been trying to make it deal able by continuing to do what I have always done…. buy things for you that you are interested in, bring home little treats for you when you’re not expecting it, try to watch things with you on tv/dvd/bluray, give you your space when you want to do your own thing, and help around the house when I can.
My wish for you, as it has been for the last 13 years, I wish you happiness in life…. I want you to be happy, always, and I have tried to push you towards something that seems like happiness for you.   I wish you all the best for 2019 (and every year), good health, happiness, wealth, and prosperity.  I wish the same for your mother.  Since I get the feeling you don’t want to be in the same room as me ( much less same house) I figured I would give you my New Years wish for you now.

I’ve done my best for not really speaking to her that much and to be honest trying to keep my distance cause I’m tired of dealing with the stupidity that she brings.

So that’s what I’ve been up to the last few days and why I haven’t really posted anything although I have cleaned up the navigation of the site a bit and will continue to do so because I’ll be adding new links etc as I post my stuff in more locations.

I have lots planned for this year, I may explain more in another blog post I haven’t decided though, time will tell.

Knowing that many like a glimpse into my personal life, here you have it…



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