I feel like the last few days I’ve been struggling. Just really struggling to be me.
Have you ever woken up and felt like you weren’t you ? Feeling unsure about what makes you happy or keeps your interest ?
That’s kind of where I’m at. I know my entire life is a joke.
But I’ve felt more lost than normal, I see that I’m back to also struggling to keep my eyes open, was watching Lucifer on netflix yesterday and I don’t think I seen much of it before my head dropped forward, the jolt of it stopping woke me up. I’m sure that’s not doing my neck any favours.
I also feel like I’m trying to put together a puzzle but there’s no box for me to go by.
I’m also feeling like I just want to spend a day in bed
I kind of wonder if a portion of me feeling like this is because of the weather outside, it’s been raining for the last two days. Not exactly the best weather for making one feel great as I know the weather has it’s own way of affecting our moods and thoughts.
I’ve also had a few nightmares last night, at times I call them nightmares even though they’re not scary. I’m not being chased by anything or anything like that. But if they were good they would be called dreams, but I don’t think they fall into that category.
I also feel like I’m roaming this earth alone, everywhere I look I see nothing but emptiness and feel nothing but loneliness
I guess back to bed I go, not sure what else to do.