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Such A Boring Few Days

So today has been rather boring, more than my usual boring.. Sure I’ve been playing more video games on my xbox one than normal. However I have been trying to limit my interactions with my computer.

Mom got a computer from her boyfriend and it’s been hitting BSOD after BSOD (Blue Screen Of Death) with error messages and for the most part it’s saying that something is corrupt, well I managed to get it up and running yesterday only for her to turn it on today and BAM! same shit again.. Well yesterday after doing a bunch of research in regards to the error messages and reading the corrupt thing I decided to do some online shopping.. I was going to buy her a new hard drive… 1TB which was for about $80 since right now she doesn’t have the money for it.. But for some reason I do, so then I thought.. Why not just buy myself a bigger hard drive since for $99 I can get a 4TB drive and I’ll buy that for myself and give Mom the hard drive that I have that’s barely a year old.. I asked her, her thoughts and she was fine with it since she doesn’t use her computer much anyways.

So last night I bought it through the amazon site from a company called Canada Computers well the sale ended yesterday which is why I jumped on it online. But they (canada computers) always holds there products for 1-2 business days before shipping things out for one reason or another.. I guess it’s because most of the time it’s big purchases and they want to give the people buying them as much time as possible to change there mind if that’s the case..

The delivery estimate for it is Wednesday – Friday .. So I took the time yesterday to back up my documents because I know that I’m going to format things when I give my current hard drive to Mom..  It’s all fine and great but sadly I don’t want to do anything much on my computer offline because it’ll mean that I have to back things up that I made changes to. I’m hoping that this evening it’ll get shipped if not tomorrow morning. I have things that I would like to work on but at this moment I’m just trying to hold off.. It’s making my day very long and even more boring. Like I said I’ve been playing xbox one which is fine I’m not complaining about that, I just have other things I would like to do that I’ve been holding off on doing for the time being.

Well back to trying to find something to do


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Celebrate Small Accomplishments

So this is 2019 and we’re officially twelve … Yeah that’s right 12 days into this year and I have decided that I’m going to celebrate small accomplishments because even though they’re small they are still accomplishments.

Starting with this…

The last release of 2018 was “Fading Away” and up until this very date it has 9 downloads.. I’m not saying it’s terrible because to be honest poetry really doesn’t get read when it comes to ebooks, as if your writing poetry your best to post it on a blog or small user communities because people really don’t go searching for it anymore. Or maybe it’s just me that they don’t want to read ? I honestly don’t know… I do have a few ideas that I’ll be testing out this year in terms of my poetry… but anyways back to the celebratory of small accomplishments …

Not to repeat myself but:
Fading Away – 9 Downloads – Release Date was: December 27 2018

Latest release:
Ken’s Guide To The Galaxy – More Probing – Release Date was: January 9 2019

The download count for Ken’s Guide To The Galaxy is 20… yes 20 it’s only been out in the market for two full days right now and it’s doubled my previous release.

For those of you who love my poetry, don’t worry.. I’m not giving up on it, it’s something that I’ve always written and always will. But I like to write anything that my mind comes up with because it may catch someone’s eye who wasn’t taking a chance on my poetry only to have them swoop in and say “Damn this guy has some talent” Since most writers tend to stay with one subject and since I’ve been writing I’ve touched on subjects such as:
Poetry, Horror, Erotica & Sci-Fi .. Plus a bunch of short stories along the way

I have millions of ideas to write about and I won’t be going anywhere… I may even invite a few friends to join me along the way.


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Going To Fast…

Every so often I like to take a day or two in order to fast, I think it’s really the only thing that I do that includes the word fast hahaa. Depending on your weight I don’t think it’s a dangerous thing to do, in fact I think it can be healthy. With weighing over 200lbs now and then I like to do it, take a day and not eat. I have noticed that with myself going the odd day or two without eating I’ve never noticed any bad side affects.

In fact at times I find that I actually do sleep better when I do it, so I think I’m going to do that today, I may continue into tomorrow but honestly I don’t really feel hungry at this point in time. I haven’t ate anything at this point in time today, I usually just eat when I’m hungry and as of late I feel like I’ve been eating way too much. I think it depends on who I’m around, certain people when I’m around them I feel like I always have to eat, maybe that’s why I haven’t been feeling that great the last day or two.. Too much crap so I need to fast and let my body eat what it already has.

I like that idea, the longest I’ve gone is 3 days, that was during the end of summer. Things went well, until I had a rather warm bath and that’s when I noticed I felt rather dizzy after.. I don’t think it was the bath that caused it, I think it’s because I stood up too fast and got dizzy. I didn’t pass out or fall over, I sat down and after a few moments the dizziness passed.

So at this point in time that’s the plan…


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I decided a couple of days ago that I would start researching religions. I was born Catholic as my Mom is as well, Dad is Protestant which is a form of Catholic. I know you constantly hear of things in the news and how everything appears to be religious wars etc etc.. I don’t really think I believe that one to be truthful, so I decided a few days ago to start doing my own research so I bought a basic book called “The Religions Book: Big Ideas Simply Explained” (click here to view it on google books).  Shortly after I bought that book I decided to buy myself something and that was what was known as a Buddha bracelet since one of the beliefs they have is in Chakra so I thought I would buy myself a bracelet the one I bought can be viewed here

According to my ex I bought it for someone “and I hope they enjoy it” what she doesn’t know is that I bought it for myself

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Haven’t Been On…

I haven’t been on lately and by that I mean in general not so much to post but I really haven’t gotten on my computer…

You see Mom’s boyfriend was having trouble with an old computer of his that he wanted to give Mom since Mom’s computer is painfully slow.. But he’s been talking about this for about two years now and just have been too busy to bring it over which I understand cause he is very busy at times… So I finally convinced him to bring it over and the problem he was having was he couldn’t copy files from the internal hard drive to an external source (hard drive / thumb drive / SD card) it kept crashing explorer… I told him I would fix it so the first thing I did was got all the windows updates since he doesn’t update windows (he’s on limited bandwidth, very limited) anyways so that didn’t fix it.. My next step was start to uninstall everything under the sun.. so I started to do just that.. First shot I removed about 56 programs one after the other… just a rapid succession of uninstalls… but that didn’t fix the problem.. So I got looking at programs he had installed and he had one called “Winlocker” so I asked him if it was OK if I removed it or if he needed it for something.. He told me he had no idea where it came from.. So I removed it and BAM everything was fucking gold.. He could transfer shit without a problem. So I lent him my 2TB external so he could copy all the files he wanted to it so I could wipe that computer that he wants to give Mom… he got everything transferred so I began to remove the rest of the programs… Of course the computer had windows 7 on it, he wanted it upgraded to windows 10 and I’ve been having trouble doing that but I think I found what I overlooked from minute one.. Only time will tell.

So Mom will have a very fast computer to use from now on when she gets back home since right now she’s over at Ralph’s. Or that’s what I’m hoping, since I hope that I have it up and running by the time she gets home.

That’s what I’ve been busy doing with all the time I have..

I slept like shit last night too cause my brain kept going to the portion of “how can I solve this problem ? I know I can solve it, but how ?” .. well after trying to fix the problem all day I think I finally solved it but I won’t know until later tonight since right now Mom’s computer is running the fix.. So here’s hoping. I may do a follow up post to this or I may not I don’t know.. or I may just edit this post later and say if I fixed it or not in the morning.

If I fixed it then I’m almost done with it, if I didn’t fix it then I still have work to do, not sure how much but I still have a bunch to do..

Time to try and relax for a bit before I goto bed.


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New Category ?!?

I normally don’t do a single post talking about me adding a new category to my blog cause honestly who cares right ?. But I know I really haven’t posted much this year and was kinda itching to get something new posted.

So the new category that I’m thinking about adding to the blog is “Windows 10” … If you don’t know me personally what you won’t know is that I’m a geek at heart, I’ve always loved testing new features in windows and helping to submit reports if I come across any problems as well as talking about it with people. Well I got off of being a windows insider last year because of having problems with one build and chose to take a break from it well I’m thinking about going back to it.

Every few months Microsoft asks it’s insiders to submit (if they’re interested) to be a windows insider mvp which you get a few small perks from it, I tried it recently and got told I wasn’t selected and was told a few options to help increase my chances and one of those was to write on a blog. Which got me thinking, well I have a blog.. In fact I have my own blog.

Currently that’s what I’m thinking about doing, nothing is officially set in stone at this point in time it’s just something that I’m thinking about doing, so it would be something that I would randomly toss into the mix of everything else that I’m doing on here. Giving my own personal insight as well.

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Last Few Days

So over the course of the last few days I’ve been in a constant battle with my ex, apparently she feels she’s getting screwed over by her current cell phone carrier and after looking into it and trying to be my typical nice guy I told her I agree with her conclusion so she asked me to look for a new provider so we took off to Upper Canada Mall for her to ask questions but of course she was in one her moods and refused so that night I got frustrated out of my fucking mind and I send her this:

If you want to go to Walmart today and try to get the phone ordeal figured out, do it. 
I had a thought about going with you to Newmarket when you were going to try and get the phone working with them but I can see that it must be a instant thing with you otherwise life is going to end or some shit like that so if you must have it done asap then go to Walmart. 
I don’t see what the big deal is but I guess it’s one of your “friends” and some secret. So go get the stupid phone. 

As for new years dinner, your on your own just like new years eve. I’m just going to do my own thing. If you want to go out to a concert or visit your friend go for it, have a few drinks and spend the night. 

I have no interests in paying attention to the whole thing I don’t even know if I will be awake for it.

In the morning I woke up to her response which I can’t help but laugh at various things in regards to it like she feels that she’s the cause of why I borrowed an anxiety blanket etc, so this is what she said

I would like to get things taken care of asap, yes…. But I will wait because you’re right, and it’s one of the things I was going to say, I know Walmart won’t be able to help me anyway….that’s why the email specifically says “Koodo Store”.   We will go on January 2nd if you’re up for it after my physio appointment.
I am sorry that I want to get everything straightened out as soon as possible…. I have the tendency to forget things easily, as you know…..that’s one of the reasons I am getting my license/health card done today instead of waiting.  I have physio, banking appointments, and heading back to work coming up and I don’t want to accidentally forget to do something.
As for New Years, my plan has always been the same as what has become tradition; chill out on the couch, watching movies and snacking with you, having a drink, and us go to bed whenever we’re tired.
I had the idea, when I saw the ad on tv while at my parents, for the possibility of us going out to Barrie but that quickly got turned down so I went back to the original plan.
Truthfully, not once did I think about going to Burks Falls to hang out with Nikki or to Toronto and hang out with Bryce….not once did it cross my mind….though I have the feeling you think I’m lying about that, like everything I say.
With what you said, I get the feeling you don’t even want to hang out and watch movies today….or snack, or be in the presence of my ugliness (inside and out, just so I’m being specific).  If you would rather not, that’s fine…. I’m still planning on making up chips and dip, the wong wing stuff and oriental party pack.  If you choose to have some of it with me, then fine, if not, there’s nothing I can do.  I can offer, I can try to be nice, but in the end, I’m always wrong so why should the last day of the year be any different.
I will bypass the ham then and we’ll just come up with something else to have…. maybe we’ll try that tater tot recipe if you want.
I am sorry I make you life so difficult…. I’m sorry that I make you angry and upset, and stressed out, and anxious all the time that you feel you need to hide away form the world and get an “anxiety blanket”.  I didn’t think I was making things that bad for you, but I guess just the presence of me being here is enough to cause that.   I’m sorry I couldn’t move out in the spring for you to make your life so much better this year.   I will aim for that for 2019 so that maybe your life won’t be so horrible for the second half of the year….and your mothers too.    I know this living here while not together is not the ideal situation but I have still been trying to make it deal able by continuing to do what I have always done…. buy things for you that you are interested in, bring home little treats for you when you’re not expecting it, try to watch things with you on tv/dvd/bluray, give you your space when you want to do your own thing, and help around the house when I can.
My wish for you, as it has been for the last 13 years, I wish you happiness in life…. I want you to be happy, always, and I have tried to push you towards something that seems like happiness for you.   I wish you all the best for 2019 (and every year), good health, happiness, wealth, and prosperity.  I wish the same for your mother.  Since I get the feeling you don’t want to be in the same room as me ( much less same house) I figured I would give you my New Years wish for you now.

I’ve done my best for not really speaking to her that much and to be honest trying to keep my distance cause I’m tired of dealing with the stupidity that she brings.

So that’s what I’ve been up to the last few days and why I haven’t really posted anything although I have cleaned up the navigation of the site a bit and will continue to do so because I’ll be adding new links etc as I post my stuff in more locations.

I have lots planned for this year, I may explain more in another blog post I haven’t decided though, time will tell.

Knowing that many like a glimpse into my personal life, here you have it…