The way you act says a lot about you to me.
Trying to be nice and polite, spending time with you watching netflix.
Asking the odd question at times not even during the show I hear your attitude.
As I hear it more and more I take note and I start doing things more for me, less for you.
Took off to Cambridge for about five days, you never found out till the day before.
I debated about saying anything to you about it, but when I found out I should bring food
That told me I had to get into a town, so that’s when it came out.
Then today, holy shit today.
You seem to think that I don’t know what’s going on, fuck I know you got a date.
Your going to your work’s Christmas Party.. I know the asshole your going with.
I also know you enjoy talking shit about me, but yet your still living in my house.
Give it time, my patients is like ice and it’s wearing thin.. Thin ice breaks easily.
I know you’ll never admit it to me about you going on dates or having a boyfriend.
Why would you ?..
But yet you’ll give me attitude when others aren’t around, it’s fine..
I’ve started not play those games too.
I’ve always had anxiety about the fire, Mom doesn’t understand it. You say you do
But with your attitude your the one putting wood on it, I know it’s a bit heavy.
Your no doubt whining to your mom about doing it..
But if you don’t speak up to me, I won’t know.
I bet if you come home tonight from this party and you find out I didn’t eat.
You’ll get pissy, honestly I won’t even care.
I learned something about myself while away in Cambridge.
When I’m around you, I snack and eat no matter if I’m hungry or not.
When your not around, I don’t. I will only do so if I’m hungry
No wonder I’ve lost weight since we’ve split.
When your stressed you run right for the food.
I’ve looked at my own life since that day.
Have been making changes ever since.
Tonight, I’m going to have a ME evening for a few hours.
Going to enjoy it.
Got a few things planned