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Diary Of Ken – The Visit – Chapter 6

So the last night I slept alright but as per apparently what became usual I woke up cold a few times, I fell asleep listening to music since the girlfriend was busy.

In the morning I got up, spent time with my two Aunts and Mom at the kitchen table two out of three of them were on tablets playing games the other one was colouring so I got on my tablet, the battery was low I think it was sitting at around 40%ish when I started by the time I was done I was hitting low 30’s but the plan was not to charge it until I got home since I was going to be coming home that day..

They had there coffee and I had hot chocolate as I don’t drink tea or coffee even though they want to try to get me to drink that stuff..

We packed up the car and came home, everytime I pack the car I feel like I’m playing fucking tetris (google it if you don’t know what it is) .. I know the Simpsons did a brief parody of Homer packing the car and doing it tetris like in one episode.. Everything seemed to fit I took the back seat since I didn’t sleep that great and I was just going to listen to music, about half way home I slapped my forehead and Mom asked “is everything ok ?” At which point I said “I forgot a bag at Aunt Ann’s” the bag remains there as we didn’t turn back, it just had two bags of chips and I think six cans of canned pasta.. It wasn’t intended to be left but oh well.

I know I left three cans of Ginger Ale since I offered to leave it since not much was left and I believe eight packs of hot chocolate since I know I drank one of my Aunt’s which I thought was her last one but I later found out it wasn’t but I wanted to replenish her stock even though she told me she doesn’t drink it much.

Anyways when we got home I did the usual thing of bringing in wood and came down to the basement to get the heater going while I unpacked, I turned on the computer so it could start getting updates and such.. I had bought a wifi adapter that I didn’t start playing with because I had a back up drive that was causing issues so I wanted to get my files off of that and onto my new one before it completely died on me.. That took several hours as the speed kept fluctuating to shuffle it from the backup (external) to the main drive (internal) then to the new backup (external) but shuffling it to the new back up was very quick compared to pulling it from the old.. Once all the files were on the new back up I confirmed it and deleted everything from the old, I’ve been updating the new back up (which is now my back up) with files on my computer as I tend to back up my most important documents every so often as most people tend to do so, but at times I think I do it more often I guess it depends on what all I’m working on.

I then got playing with the wifi adapter which after a few hours I realized it wasn’t going to work, I sent it back to Amazon for a replacement I figure I’ll try another one since it had many good reviews maybe I just got a faulty one I hope I can make my computer wireless. It would be nicer in my own opinion.

That was how I spent my day until I went to bed, I was in bed earlier than I was for those few days I was at my Aunt’s since I was just completely exhausted from all the lack of sleep I had, I slept alright my first night back even though I ended up watching 3 movies through the night but I did goto bed around 9pm but that’s fine..

So that was my last day there and my day at home, which means that “Diary Of Ken – The Visit” is now done and I can ship it out to my new distributor since I’m trying a new place for my stuff since I feel like I’m not getting anywhere with my old one..

Hope you enjoyed reading it directly here on my blog and if you’d like, find it on your favorite online retailer and give it a 5 star rating or some feedback, it would be greatly appreciated.


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eBook Distribution

For the last few years I’ve been using Smashwords for my distribution platform cause I like the community that surrounds it. However about a month ago I decided to drop all the “voices in my head” and just write under my real name..

With that being said I think I am going to try a new distribution company too, the new one is called BookRix it will get me on Amazon plus it’ll get me on google play, I’m already on google play but this way I don’t have to manage it.. It will also get me on everything else I’m already on.

So from here on out that’s what I’m going to be using, I’m sure my numbers won’t be as high as they are on smashwords but I’ve also noticed that those numbers have been dropping, I don’t know if it’s because they dont’ send the information to smashwords or what’s going on but here’s hoping this will help me in both long and short runs of my writing.

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Diary Of Ken – The Visit – Chapter 5

Last night I slept alright, kinda sad that I didn’t talk to my girlfriend much but I know that happens since she’s a busy little girl.. As per usual since being here I’ve had a hard time falling asleep… I watched a few things on youtube with my ear buds in and listened to music after that to try and calm me down but neither worked that well.. I woke up a few times during the night as I have been… no doubt cause I had trouble getting comfortable.

As for today, what did I do today… hmmm … woke up, did a bit of shopping, went to giant tiger, a dollar store and Aunt Aleta has had a craving for pita’s so she treated all of us to pita pit so that was dinner as we brought that back here.. but we were only out for about an hour since we had to sit around and wait for my Aunt Ann’s stove to get here but they didn’t really talk much about going to many stores either way so it was just the two of them then snag up dinner and back home we go.

Once we got back here we ate and just kinda sat around three of us played on our tablets as Aunt Aleta doesn’t have one, I don’t think she’d be good on one but I know it’s a learning thing and I’m sure when we all first started we weren’t the greatest with them either…
But while we played on our tablets Aunt Aleta coloured as the two aunts and Mom enjoy colouring in the adult colouring books usually when they do that if I’m around I venture up to the computer or see what’s on tv.
I was hoping my cousin Paul would have shown up today but it didn’t quite work out like that as we were talking sports and music since he use to play in a band and still dabbles with making music. He talked about getting a DAW (Digital Audio Workstation) on his laptop to make music with so we got talking about that sort of thing and what I use yesterday and I sent him links, he doesn’t have a personal facebook account he just does everything through his fiancée’s  I haven’t heard back from him about anything yet..

The topic of us going home tomorrow has came up, I think it’s going to happen since it’s calling for a bit of snow tomorrow and the next day and Mom is hoping that we get home before things get worse than what they are.. We have seen a few flurries while being here but nothing stayed on the ground..

I know when I get back home I’m going to end up sleeping a lot.. since I’ve had trouble getting comfortable and at times getting warm here so I can see me falling asleep when I get comfortable infront of the tv. But that’s fine…

I know I have a few jobs to do when I get home like change up my hard drive , well my back up drive since the current one keeps giving me issues and I bought one before coming out I just haven’t had the chance to shuffle my files from one to the next. That will take a few hours, but I’m ok with that..

I’ve had an on/off headache since being here since at times they like to drill me with questions and I’ve already been warned that Aunt Aleta will be bringing her laptop by the house, so I can show her how to do a few things… I already know how this will go, I’ll show her once and the one time will equal to I have to show her how to do it 8-10 times. She’s not really good with technology but Mom and Aunt Ann are better and they talk about how they do … things so easily and Aleta gets lost so she starts questioning me but trying to explain it to her isn’t easy… I do it the best I can but I know she gets confused.. She’s got two kids who are older than me, I don’t know why she doesn’t ask them… Oh yeah I do, the daughter is annoying as shit and refuses to help the mother and the son I don’t know what his technical skills are like. Even though he’s on facebook and he does play video games too.. But for some reason I’m the one who gets dragged into all of this like I enjoy it.. I don’t.. Cause I always have a hard time explaining things to people and they always turn to me and say “is there another way for me to do that an easier way ?” I show them the easiest way and I tell them that and I also tell them there is one other way and it’s super simple, you just don’t do it…  Dad use to give me shit all the time when I say that because I have to be patient … yeah I get that, but when you start asking me dumb as fuck questions I get annoyed and frustrated because to me it’s like your trying to see what all you can get away with… Or the other thing they tend to do when I show them… I’ll show them step one like how to save a picture from the web, and they’ll say “Ok so how can I send this to five people ?” so my way of doing things is “are you sure you understand what I showed you ?, do you know this step ?” … at which point Dad would give me shit about it and I would say to him “if they don’t understand step one what’s the point of me showing them how to do something more advanced ?” he would tell me “it’s your attitude” I never had an attitude I just want them to learn… otherwise I might as well do every fucking thing for them on the computer…  For the record my father was terrible at computers and we tried to teach him and he refused to learn.. he tried for a bit but always felt “stupid” and I would always tell him “we all had to learn, it takes time, I got bad grades in typing classes but they clearly paid off” … he refused to listen… in all honesty again… there was no talking to my father, we didn’t get along. At times I felt like I was his worst enemy and we spoke two different languages cause we never understood each other and always at each others throats.
Sadly I feel the same way about Mom, I feel like I’m her worst enemy and we speak two different languages.
Her favorite line to use is “there’s no talking to you kids” … she’s sadly not much different cause there’s no talking to her either at times, but I’m sure that’s similar for everyone.

WOW this has to be my longest post I’ve done I’m currently at 1174 words .

So that was my day, I’m now back on the computer as I type this and one part of me hopes we go home tomorrow, just various things I miss about it.

So that’s all for now, I doubt anything more significant will happen tonight since everyone is now in bed and I’m goofing around online while I charge my tablet..

Anyways time to try and figure out what to do until I crawl into bed..


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Diary Of Ken – The Visit – Chapter 4

Once again I slept like shit however in the evening I found that the vent in the bedroom that I’m sleeping in was closed, so I opened it so hopefully that’ll make the difference for tonight..

I was awake by 8am and once again I went shopping with Mom and two Aunts, did a bunch of Christmas shopping, still have more to do not sure when I’ll finish it but I’m not worried it won’t take me long to finish. I bought a few things for me, I helped one of my Aunts with one of her purchase and I found that Mom gets offended by fucking everything.. She was at Walmart and a lady came up to her and said “excuse me but would you like to come this way for me to cash you out” … she took it as she’s old and feeble … I later said to Mom “it wasn’t that, not all self check outs accept anything but credit card, the Walmart’s close to us only do credit card they don’t even do debt/interac so many people think they can do cash and that’s no doubt why she said what she did was because mainly the older folks use cash more times than the younger crowd..” it made me shake my head at her… But she’s one of the people who think that she’s always right it makes me sick that she’s not willing to learn, I don’t know how she expects to survive in a fast growing world.. everything has to be her way all the fucking time..

I could sit here and no doubt write a 50 page book about my Mom and call it “shit my mom says” but honestly I bet if I did someone would read it and say “no one would say that shit he’s making that up”.

I’ve often joked about that with Mom… I wonder if I made a cover for it and sent it to her how she’d react… I think I might have to do that because as she says “I like your sense of humour” but at times I don’t think she gets it

She makes me shake my head a lot and I know I’m not the only one who does I know my brother and sister are no different.

So we’re now home and done shopping for the day, my Aunt Ann is hoping to get a call so that her new stove comes in tomorrow. I made a deal with her if she wants to accept it, just basically “I’ll stay home and if they call saying they’ll be here in X many hours, I’ll call you and you come home… but you will owe me a trip to giant tiger” since they’re going to giant tiger tomorrow and I want to check out a few things there.. she doesn’t think there coming tomorrow if they don’t call.. I’m just trying to help out.

I have a headache from the 3 of them, more so from Mom.. I always have a hard time being around her for long periods of time since I swear she’s bipolar with how much her mood fluctuates.. I start to understand why my brother and sister drink.. more so my brother.. I gave up drinking I watched basically my family turn from Jekyl to Hyde (basically be two completely different people when they’re not drinking to when they’re drinking) so that’s what made me stop, that’s one reason.. Another reason is because I didn’t want to end up like my father.. My father and I didn’t get along much at times, we always seemed to be at each other’s throats. Especially the last few years of his life.

So that’s been my day, if anything more significant happens I may add a part 2 …


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Diary Of Ken – The Visit – Chapter 3

Last night after I finished chapter two I crawled into bed… got talking to my girlfriend for a bit and I feel like I broke her… I sent her something on facebook and she was shocked that I sent it and could barely speak after it…  Which sucks in a way cause I love talking to her it helps me take my mind off the previous day..

Anyways when I got to sleep, as per normal as of late I woke up a few times during the night which sucked but I managed to get back to sleep rather quick which was rather nice.. I woke up at first at 8am and thought it was too early so I went back to bed I finally got out of bed at 10am…

Me, mom and the two aunts sat around waiting for my sister and her husband to come over for lunch from London.  they came we had lunch and sat around and talked about various subjects as family does… I took a photo of my aunt’s Christmas tree and posted on facebook which she some what complained about but I know she didn’t care.. I also posted it on my Instagram but I know she has no idea about that account since the two aren’t linked
While my sister and her husband were here my sister had a glass of wine, as I watched the wine get poured I knew that minute that we were staying inside for the day and not going shopping so my brain started to think.. I did a bunch of online shopping and made the decision to turn my computer into a wireless computer at home so I bought a wifi adaptor to do that, it should get to my house before I do.. but I know I’ve been having problems with my computer staying hard wired at times, so what’s the problem you ask ? … you know on the end of the ethernet cable… similar to a phone line you have that clear plastic part that you plug into the wall or the phone and it’s got the locking mechanism on it that when you push it in you hear “click” ? .. mine fell off a while ago so at times if I move my tower it will come unplugged… so with making it wireless I know that won’t happen anymore and I’ve thought about this for a while really decided to do it because my aunts pc is wireless and I’ve had no problems with it… It didn’t cost me much around $24 ..
if it turns out it’s not good for me then I can either send it back to amazon (the store not the rain forest) or keep it and deal with the fact that I dropped $24… but it should work fine I’ve done lots of wifi in the basement and haven’t had many problems so I’m sure this will cause me little to no problems plus it’s small enough that it’ll be hidden in the back and I’ll no doubt forget about it.

So I’ve been on the computer basically all day or on my tablet or on my chromebook since I’ve been stuck in the house I know I don’t have much to do, besides that and answer random questions about facebook, how to use facebook and why do certain things on facebook and how to do certain things on facebook… I have never felt so stupid in my life… I felt like everything I was saying confused them both.. I was trying to give them a some A to B answer and they wanted to do A to G  .. do seven steps that they don’t have to do when they can do it in one. I later gave up on explaining things.

after dinner I basically came back up to the computer and been here ever since surfing, shopping, thinking …. that sort of thing.. I know I haven’t wrote any poetry since being here but I always like expanding and by the looks of things people like reading this stuff too both on here and on another site I post on..

So that’s been my day, I’m being told that we’re going shopping tomorrow, but I think that’s weather permitting because it’s raining right now. Hope it doesn’t freeze over night.. I’ll no doubt be on the chromebook again for a bit tonight as well as my tablet… who knows what I’ll be doing.

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Diary Of Ken – The Visit – Chapter 2

Alright so this is my second day here, first let me tell you I slept like shit.. shortly after I wrote chapter 1 I called it a night… I had six blankets on my bed, I woke up 4 times feeling cold.. I was actually shivering, to the point where I went downstairs to the couch and grabbed two more blankets I mentioned that when I woke up at 8am and now I have yet another blanket which really makes me wondering if I’m getting sick or not.

So shortly after I got up, had a hot chocolate, have to buy more next time I head out since I drank my aunt’s last one and I want to replenish things for her… I then chose to get out of the house and do some shopping so we went to a mall, this mall is fucking huge.. There was a skating rink in it, full size and I was watching two teams play hockey… and by hockey I mean ice hockey… the night before I sold an item on ebay so I ventured to the post office in the mall to drop it off, I know it’s not going anywhere until Monday but it’s out of my hands so it’s considered shipped..

I then ventured around and came across a movie store called Cinema 1, there’s a few locations around Ontario… I picked up Ted & Ted 2 on Blu-ray for $5 each… but the bonus thing is, it wasn’t just blu ray… both were: Blu-ray / DVD / Digital Codes … I have the dvd’s at home, so why buy the blu-rays ? … my ex (who is still living with me) will be moving out in the new year and all of our dvds we split when we bought them so now it’s either her buying dvds to replace things or I am .. so being the nice guy I am I buy some blu-rays and the dvd’s that we had I give them to her..  Just trying to help her out at this moment I know some of you will think I’m an idiot and will think that I should make her do everything but I try to help out when I can… It’s the nice guy in me..

After the first trip to the mall we came back to the house for lunch, we all finished our Chinese food from the night before, I had next to nothing left but my aunt had a ton of rice so I got most of that since she wasn’t crazy about it. The two aunts and mom went back to the same mall I stayed home and surfed and did things on the computer to help fix it up.. after a few hours they got home, shortly after that dinner was made. We all sat around and talked, but I kept my tablet handy so I could easily look at that and see if I had any email or if anyone messaged me… They called it a night around 10ish they all finally got into bed around 1030.

That was my day, Oh and also during my down time I spent a bit of it talking / cuddling / petting… Pup, yes I’m a big kid, I brought a little plush dog with me… So why is his name Pup ?… I had a real dog that was black (with a white spot on his chest) whom we named Buddy. But my nickname for Buddy was “Pup” cause no matter how old he got he always reminded me as a pup… So when Buddy passed I was sad and while out once I found this little plush guy whom I bought and named Pup to keep me company when I was feeling down..
I think Buddy passed in 2006 or 2007 it wasn’t long after Dad passed who passed December 20th 2005.. Dad died in a car accident… I’m sure I’ll reflect on this more as that day gets closer as I always do.

So that was my day, oh and one last thing… Between posting Chapter 1 and going to bed last night I uploaded a bunch of my youtube videos.. I’ll post my youtube link in due time I want to get all my videos online. I normally post every video when it goes online but that’s mainly because my connection is slow, right now at my Aunt’s it’s rather fast so I’ve been uploading in bulk so when I get them all done I’ll post my youtube channel link so everyone can view it…

Well that was my day.. Time to goof around a bit and hopefully talk to my girlfriend before I crawl into bed to sleep..