Today Is October 4th

So today is October 4th the day before my birthday, I honestly have nothing planned because I’ve never been the one to plan things. I generally just sit around the house and not do a whole lot that’s my typical birthday. Although my gut tells me tomorrow is going to be different, something tells me I’m going to get ken-napped … Not in a bad way but I can see my girlfriend showing up wanting to take me out for the day or she may just want to sped time with me around the house. Or she may end up … Continue reading Today Is October 4th

Another Day, Another Shitty Mood

I’m tired of living in this house with her. For the last two days I’ve been in shitty moods, sick to my stomach and not wanting to live or get out of bed. Every fucking choice in this house is made because that’s what “she wants” and it’s either “her way” or “her way”. I’ve spent a lot of the time over the last two days in tears, feeling sick to my stomach and not wanting to get out of bed. I also feel like I’m being forced to do things that I don’t want to do because it’s what … Continue reading Another Day, Another Shitty Mood

Tired Of This…

So all my life I grew up in a house where my voice meant nothing. Perhaps that’s why I’ve always been the very very quiet kid, my parents didn’t listen to me they always had the attitude of “what we say is right, don’t argue just shut the fuck up and do it”. Back in 2005 when Dad passed away I figured things would change, turns out it didn’t. My brother basically got “promoted” and my voice got quieter to less than an actual whisper. If that’s even possible. When it comes to my Mom she doesn’t “Talk” to me… … Continue reading Tired Of This…

It’s now 3:16pm …

So last night in the middle of the night while having trouble sleeping I thought I would get up and write up a blog post just saying a bunch of thoughts that were on my mind, which I would like to say it help me put things in perspective but in all honestly it didn’t. I woke up today from not getting much more sleep, even though I wanted to lay in bed longer than what I did and I decided to pull down all the free music I posted, yea I know I suck.. But I have decided to … Continue reading It’s now 3:16pm …

Well…

Well I’m glad that I posted the last article when I did, as I was in a better mood. Right now I don’t know if I would post something like that because of how I am feeling. But I do feel that women deserve to hear that every day, I don’t think some of them hear it enough. So I wanted to post it up as my own way of sending some positive thoughts to those who need to hear it. Hopefully something will put me in a better mood this evening, although it could be just that I am … Continue reading Well…

Been Feeling

The last few days I’ve been feeling rather sick to my stomach, I think it’s a mix of stress from everything going on in my life and something else, maybe anger.. I don’t know what else maybe it’s just stress. So I’ve been spending countless hours in bed, basically I usually am in bed by like 7pm watching a string of randomly chosen movies until I fall asleep. I’m sure tonight won’t be much different because of how things have been. I’ve been fighting with my ex who still lives with me after seven months and she continues to proceed … Continue reading Been Feeling

Been Going Through A lot

So for the last little while I have been going through a lot of shit in regards to my ex. I have been spending lots of time in bed and wanting to hide from the world and sleeping when I can. I have recently been told that I am depressed which may explain why I haven’t been posting that frequently on my blog as of late. I have had a hard time finding the want to do just that, like I said I have just been wanting to lay in bed and hide and eating very little as well. I … Continue reading Been Going Through A lot