If I Had The Chance

If I had the chance I would have changed that day for you That faithful day back in December of 2005 You kissed your husband for the last time the night before He got up, went to work and you never seen him again You got tragic news about his passing. If I could have swapped places with him I would have. Let him keep living and I can fade out of everyone’s memory Never really thought myself as much, more of an after thought really Don’t think many would have cared. I bet it would have been a decade … Continue reading If I Had The Chance

Sadness

I feel like my brain is plagued with sadness At times I don’t know if it’s flooding my brain more Or if it’s just leaving me confused I’ve spent days just looking at the wall Wondering when this day will be over Just to crawl back into bed Even days that I know I’m having trouble sleeping I try to fill my mind with happier thoughts At times it doesn’t work, the sadness just comes in. I feel like I’m being chased by it. But I keep tripping up So it always seems to find it’s way to catch me. … Continue reading Sadness

Already Know

I already know I lost you. From the moment those words hit the screen I knew I did. With you saying you wanting to think about what’s more important. It comes down to choosing me or a bigger family. I told you I don’t want kids, you know I struggle so much with my past. Bullied and harassed, I always read stories about kids going through it now. The difference is now they can’t get away from it, there’s facebook, instagram, snapchat All ways to get in touch with someone, not to mention cell phones. If I couldn’t get away … Continue reading Already Know

Emotional Day

Emotional day today, spent more than a few times with tears in my eyes. The movie bringing back all sorts of emotions and feelings. I hope that I never have to go through it again. Don’t know how I would react a second time around. Would I walk away in tears, or would I just completely loose it. Tough decision to say which one I would do, think it depends on a few circumstances. I wish I could just get away from things today. But I keep going back and pushing play on the movie. Feeling like I’m reliving it … Continue reading Emotional Day